You are dreading the visit because the end result is always the same but you are so relieved that they are ok, even if just for that moment.
How many times have you given them money you really couldn't afford, given them rides, lied for them, and brought yourself literally to the brink of insanity for the addict that you love?
The problem is that in the meantime you are being torn apart and every fiber of your being is being shredded.
Your family is falling apart and you have no idea where to turn.
Stop letting their behaviors run your life, whatever that means you have to do.
You may have to be done until they are ready to help themselves.
If you are someone that loves an addict you can relate, the sleepless nights, the missed heartbeats when the phone rings, the dread and relief together when your addicted loved one shows up.
Thus in the case of the question being asked, the boyfriend is probably just preoccupied with something else.
Or maybe , because I can’t stand the idea of romanticizing crystal meth, or making it seem cool somehow.
One might expect that meth addicts would realize at this point, when they don’t have their drug but experience a normal state of mind, that what they yearn for is not “energy” at all, but a meth high. Most continue to think that the drug gives them energy, and this is why most addicts money, over and over again, as if stuck in some endless loop. Even if you use in a group, everybody goes off on their own mission.
A girl sat at the computer with headphones on and a microphone, singing the same shit over and over again. And one guy sat on a sofa, apparently tweaking on shaking his knee, which he did the entire time I was there. You seldom tweak on the same thing as anybody else.